Tuesday, November 13, 2007

catchin' up...or not....?

did u ever wonder what happened to ur old school/college/work pals?ever google them now?email em n ask them if they remember u?tell them what ur upto n ask them whats new with them?wish em on birthdays/festivals/blah days?arrange to meet up over a cuppa?laugh n remember old old times?ppl u had in common?most ppl do stuff like that yeah?
me not so much.
heck,me not at all really.

...and i really do not know why!when a old friend calls home [mom,im away,forEVER]
asks to meet [im takin a flightout someplace,damn...lousy timing huh...?]
wants my number [er..ooops,i think that one digit went awry]
asks me what im upto [oh u know...busy existing]
tries tellin me what theyre upto [isn't the weather just...bitchin!!]

i don't know...i simply don't know why i don't like catching up with ppl i've known,and even known the past...its not like i'm a failure in life,or anything...then...what would explain this pathological need for total and complete disconnection with people from the past?hmm.has anyone ever felt that way?i guess we ALL feel that way regarding people whom we've had lousy experiences with,but what about with other,normal relationships...or is it just me?
it just seems like so much work,for a relationship with someone...who knows what u were all about 10yrs ago,and so will assume u r still the same old same person...which u r not...cos things have happened,both gud n bad,in those 10yrs...which have made u what u r now...and what ppl look for in their old for a comforting familiarity...which u cant provide...cos Ur not the u they think u r...not after all that,not anymore!!!
sometimes,when i come across ppl from my school/college,online,i just have a look but don't communicate...seriously...even ppl who have been best friends[ I'm in touch with exactly 1 friend from high school]...maybe i'm not such a gud friend,maybe..i'm just being a true aquarian![ugh,so lame...but so true!]
wonder why,wonder what would happen,if i did msg someone from school one day,out of the blue.wud he/she remember me?b pleasantly surprised or shocked to hear from me?wud he/she reply?so i will.lessee what happens.

2 lost souls found themselves in my mirror....:

Nick said...

Hey chubbs!
As always you have poured your feelings out..
U know me v.well so u must be aware of the fact that I too don't have many friends & I don't even try to get in touch with my schoolmates/collegemates/old friends(watever u wana call dem).
N you know wat I feel is that may be wen I was not able to be good friends with them at that part of my life.....then how can I be one with them today?
May be, for the most of the people around us, it can be a fun thing or a tinge of excitement(in his/her life) but u know wat....I CAN'T LIVE WITH THE PEOPLE/THINGS THAT I HAVE LEFT BEHIND IN MY LIFE which were really not a part of my life actually!
I said it all Chubbs!I mean whatever I had in ma mind at this point of time.
Leme know wat u have to say about this..okie?
Love u sweeto!

david mcmahon said...

Hi Sweta,

As promised, I'm here going through your blog for the first time.

I do like the choice of cartoon here!

Strangely enough, I live in Melbourne, basically in the same suburb as not one but two of my classmates from North Point, Darjeeling.

In fact, my sn and the son of on classmate went to kindergarten together!

Will be back to read more of your blog in depth.

Do keep in touch.