CrAviNg CoFfEe...

My mom insists I'm addicted to coffee. I used to have around 4-5 cups of the beautiful brew in black daily. Sometimes more, if I had to study. But ever since i started this new job 10 days ago, I have been so exhausted I can't even muster the strength to make me a cuppa java. I've only had 5 cups in the past 10 days.

Upon hearing this my parents immediately expressed their delight and decided to give me more tips on how to stop drinking coffee. They're not alone in doing so. Many people give useless and more importantly, unwanted advice on quitting coffee.

Imagine their surprise when I coolly imform them I am not interested in quitting my "addiction". I love my cup of coffee. I love the bitter sweetness and musings in a cup. I love almost everything about a delicious cup of coffee. And I know how much to have so as not to get sick. Or gastritis!

We all sometimes feel the need for something, call it a crutch if you will, to help us get by life. For all those times when we find ourselves not brimming with natural endorphins and optimism? For all those times life tries to get us down [ several times a day sometimes.] we have something. A pick me up. Who is to say whose is harmful whose is safe? I'm not talking about big things like alchohol or drugs....not things which can ruin one's life in an obvious manner.

The other tiny addictions which we often fit into out daily routine in such a way that we don't even realise how much we need them, until our routine is upset in some way. It could be our family. Or a TV show that makes us laugh or gasp in horror [K-serials.], or several or few cups off tea or coffee, or our better half, or a few phone calls and conversations to friends to vent. For some it could be an intense round of sex or even pot. A cigarette on the balcony. Daily exercise. Love, even.

All of these in excess are harmful.

But no one advises us to quit them.

Apparently now coffee makes one hallucinate. Well, you're going to have to quit your Doctor because your doctor isn't going to quit his/her coffee! It keeps most of us on the go. That or tea. Or money.

Think about it, before you offer up unwelcome advice to someone else. Whats your addiction? And is it such a bad thing? If it helps soften the sharp corners life has to offer sometimes...?

catchin' up...or not....?

did u ever wonder what happened to ur old school/college/work pals?ever google them now?email em n ask them if they remember u?tell them what ur upto n ask them whats new with them?wish em on birthdays/festivals/blah days?arrange to meet up over a cuppa?laugh n remember old old times?ppl u had in common?most ppl do stuff like that yeah?
me not so much.
heck,me not at all really.

...and i really do not know why!when a old friend calls home [mom,im away,forEVER]
asks to meet [im takin a flightout someplace,damn...lousy timing huh...?]
wants my number [er..ooops,i think that one digit went awry]
asks me what im upto [oh u know...busy existing]
tries tellin me what theyre upto [isn't the weather just...bitchin!!]

i don't know...i simply don't know why i don't like catching up with ppl i've known,and even known well...in the past...its not like i'm a failure in life,or anything...then...what would explain this pathological need for total and complete disconnection with people from the past?hmm.has anyone ever felt that way?i guess we ALL feel that way regarding people whom we've had lousy experiences with,but what about with other,normal relationships...or is it just me?
it just seems like so much work,for a relationship with someone...who knows what u were all about 10yrs ago,and so will assume u r still the same old same person...which u r not...cos things have happened,both gud n bad,in those 10yrs...which have made u what u r now...and what ppl look for in their old friends...is for a comforting familiarity...which u cant provide...cos Ur not the u they think u r...not after all that,not anymore!!!
sometimes,when i come across ppl from my school/college,online,i just have a look but don't communicate...seriously...even ppl who have been best friends[ I'm in touch with exactly 1 friend from high school]...maybe i'm not such a gud friend,maybe..i'm just being a true aquarian![ugh,so lame...but so true!]
wonder why,wonder what would happen,if i did msg someone from school one day,out of the blue.wud he/she remember me?b pleasantly surprised or shocked to hear from me?wud he/she reply?so i will.lessee what happens.