I forced myself to face my worst fear today. Yes thats me, horrified!
Let me explain.
Until nearly 7years ago, I was fairly good looking [read : Hot!] and smart and polished and basically I put effort into my looks and physique. I used to preen in front of the mirror and scope myself in everything that reflected light and myself. I was the epitome of vanity. You would've been too if you had guys falling for you left and right.
I was confident. Arrogant, even. [not proud, and certainly not so anymore.]
Then college happened. Misunderstandings, rejections, betrayals, loneliness, a sense of not knowing myself...
Then eating disorders happened....
Soon enough I began hating the reflection I saw in the mirror. So I did what seemed smart [read : Convienient] at the time, and sold my full length mirror.
I never faced a full length mirror...after that.
Yesterday I went and bought one....
After all these years, it seems to me, the smart thing to do, the only thing to do, is change what I see in the mirror. I couldn't do that until I saw what the mirror shows, the thing that scares the living crap out of it.
So I did.
I faced it.
And its helping already. Fitness first. Healthy foods in. All kinds of junk out. Daily runs a must.
You must think I'm so bizarre!!
This is me though...facing my worst fear...trying to make my biggest enemy my best pal.
Thursday, July 02, 2009
Mirror mirror on the wall...who's the scariest of them all?
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45 lost souls found themselves in my mirror....:
Shaabash!!!
LOL. Seems like I am going to have company!!! Mirror is more like a friend.. You can know all about yourself from it!!!
The exact same thing happened with me too! I saw myself in a full length mirror last year after a gap of almost 10 months and I looked like a double roti :|
I have been trying to steadily reduce all the bulge.. It's working, but slowly.
All the best!
awww! hugs Coffee!!!!
u get back on track coffee!! yes yes!!! must to work our way to getting hot bod again!!!
firstly, don't make the mistake i made....when i started putting on, i kept saying "damn, i'm fat" and then bought loose clothes....
no shopping for loose clothes...u work ur way into old fitting clothes!!!!
and don't think too much about it! thinking more will add to weight, i did all the wrong things!
finally, decided to tell myself every morning, "wow, i think i lost weight" and trust me, it does wonders, a positive attitude! don't punish urself with these thoughts! but yes, wanting fitness is a good dood move!
acceptance is the first step to change! and ur there! the rest is surely gonna follow!!
in few months, we want full lenght pic! smiling!!! n confident!
coffee is best hot! so come on!!!!
HUGS!!!
Hi5 girl! Its great to know that u r outta ur worst fear.. Now put on those sneakers and burn the few extra kilos and bring out the HOT girl within..All the best!! :)
:)
first of all hats off for the courage to write about this:))
and for facing your fear head on!
you go girl!:)))
no not bizzare ..but definitely brave :))
((hugs)))
PS:-I also love your lil girl whose pic is on the sidebar:))))
nope i dont think u r bizarre..
infact i could relate with u..even i have 2 start what u ve already started..dunno wen ll i do dat.... :(:(
All d best...hope to see ur fairly good looking body (:P) again.. .:))
Here you go....Fighter Girl!
I am glad that you finally figured out the way to overcome your weakness.
Love u babez n kp smiling :)!
Full length mirrors are the biggest enemy of my self-image, too. But you have faced the enemy head-on with your healthy food and exercise regime. All the best!
LOL... i am glad to see you are not sinking in your misery but battling on. this is very inspiring for me...
What an expression that....your face says it all
All the best to you. I cant ever give up junk food. Its against my family values. :D :D
Whatday doing girl? Mirrors are our enemy. :D
That was an honest account. Appreciate that you wrote it. And by the way it's confidence that makes one beautiful. Take care. Nice blog.
@Rush.me : U have a virtual gym buddy now :)
@Satan's Darling : Thanks pal...hehe...loved the double roti part!
@Crafty shines : HEY! Ur right...coffee is indeed best hot. Thats my motto now on!
@Tongue fu lady : The sneakers and I are both burning!
@Indyeah : Shes called google...n currently parked on my kashmiri rug! hence the new pic :)
@Laddu : Start soon! Sooner is better than never...
@Chirpy paro : Hehe...yea, hopefully!
@Nick : Lubbu too!
@Sucharita : WEll i think its a good idea to try to turn ur enemy into ur best friend ;)
@LGL : Forward ho!
@Pesto sauce : That was the point!
@Aniket : Family values? really??
@Solilo : nooo...not the enemy no more!
@Jagjit : I'm working on the confidence bit :) thank u for visiting and taking the time to comment :o)
If it weren't for mirrors...
keep it rollin;)
Thank god ...
"mirrors cant laugh" &
"mirrors came screeeem either"
Poor thing !
HURRAH! ME too! :) I'm dreading getting married in a Sari being as heavy as I am now! With all the world to see my fat stomach??? OH HORROR!
To be perfectly honest though, you still are gorgeous.
But getting healthy and feeling good about yourself is all that matters!
So good luck to us both! :)
@Scribbler : If it weren't for mirrors We'd be lost!
@Shafi : Your sympathies are with my mirror??!!!
lol yeah....you got that right into the BOX.. ha ha
Dont it really deserve that ??
Its great to recognize your enemy and to plan a strategy to uproot it, like you have done.Hope you succeed in your goal!
guess the mirror might have got afraid and this fear must have made it produce this horrified effect of urs...lols..
chillz...
u still look good [read : Hot!]
Yogesh
ygoel.com
@Shafi : I'll let ur sarcasm pass!
@Sara : I hope so too! Make friends with the enemy...thats the rule :)
@Yogesh : Ur siding with shafi! but thank u for the back handed compliment :)
Okay ...! 8-(
pleasure is all mine dear..
tke cre
b well..
Yogesh
ygoel.com
lol. you are amazing! :-)
@Deepansh: I wonder why u think so!!
The last line reminds me of "Batman Begins!"
Lol! :D
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